Tuesday, April 13, 2010
He holds me when I start to cry, makes me smile with just his eyes. He shares my hopes, dreams, and fears. He wipes away all my tears. I love him without regret. It’s unfair to think so much of you when you’re not missing me at all, to cry when you never shed a tear, to love when you say words that hurt my heart. I just wonder why just when I learned to wait, it was when you never came. I wonder why just when I learned to laugh, it was when you made me cry. And I wonder why just when I’ve learned to love you, it was when you said goodbye.Everyday, I walk towards you hoping that I’d somehow get to be with you for at least a moment. But it’s hard for me to catch up when you’re also trying to catch up with someone else. And if time would come that I’d have to let you go, I’d let you believe that I fooled you. I know this would hurt but it would hurt more if you’ll find out that I loved you but I couldn’t fight for you.
It doesn’t hurt anymore. It keeps on repeating the same thing. Finally, I could smile again. But every once in a while, it comes back. I remember how I lost the only person I’ve ever loved and then I realize I still do.
Slowly, I broke down, tears fell from my eyes, my heart shattered into pieces, all the sweet memories played inside my mind. And like that I stayed while watching you walk out of my life. I needed someone so I tried to talk to you but you were in a hurry. I tried to call you but you said you were busy. I wanted to tell you how I feel, to tell you I love you. Now you’ll never know cause guess what? I just dont want u to noe..