life imperfection

2011-01-17T12:38:00.000-08:00

This is the only place that i can pour my hearts out!! Arrggghhh! I felt so fucked up today!! Because the only thing that i wanted was you to smile.. Thats all. I didnt ask for any expensive stuff. The only expensive thing. That i want you to do is do the things u wanted with me naturally. I dont force u in anyways. And it feel sucks!! When a moment you say u want everything and suddenly you dont want a thing.. Today i just feel so unwanted. I dont please you to love me and want me. Please do it naturally.. Mean what you say.. Sleeping With a heavy heart.. ;,(

2011-01-02T14:10:00.000-08:00

Im full of question marks on my head. Nothing is perfect in this world. Everything will start with failure and end with success. I just need those strong leg of mine to stand strong even though im falling apart, me myself and i are the one whose gonna go thru. Life is too complicated sumtimez. People will tend to not appreciate u like how u appreciate them, people will not love u as much as u love dem, people wouldnt care much bout u on how u care so much bout them. Thats life, life is unfair. If it is obstacles dosent exist in the dictionary. Brrr..

2010-11-30T08:22:00.000-08:00

Im soo pissed off with facebook!!!!!!

Look at this!!

I did nothing then suddenly this happen!

So for now im gonna update this blog that its been unattended for quite sometime. HEH!

But still am PISSED!! Bohhooo!!

Im fucking bored right now.. Searching for any blogshops that are selling contact lenses..

Im soo wanting the GEO lenses that is 14MM.

I found 1. But still consider in buying..

Seriously i got nothing to so..

So i have to kill sometime by updating...

Life had been great or i can say better.

But theres alot of obstacles to go through.

This is wat life's is. :)

Boooyakasyah!! I did send the 3rd.

Im.mMM!!!

Spending time with lovelies is = SPLENDID!!!

2010-11-21T08:48:00.000-08:00

Im full with anger and dissapoinment for now! gosh! FML!

2010-09-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya!! Maaf Zahir dan Batin..

2010-07-29T03:28:00.000-07:00

Few more days is gonna be a fasting month. And August also marks my 1 year of single hood. I went through allot. Name it the bad ways and best ways. From friends, to guys and even love life of other. Family is the main people who would alwaes be around. Happy doesn't got to do with RELATIONSHIP. If u have LOVE or in a relationship with someone if u're not happy is not worth it. Do something that u like to do and love to do. Dont take things for granted.
But 1 thing i alwaes pray to god is Let me have a better life in the future.
For now i'll take all this pain. Go through it all. Till the end. Sometimes we must go through the storms in life in order to get the rainbows at the end. There are two primary choices in life and love...to accept the way things are or to accept the responsibility of changing them.

And for u,
The one that alwaes see my soul with you.
I hope u've been changing to be a better one.
Im happy that u're around.
But i cant give to much hope on u. Bcos once i fall its difficult for me to stand up again.
I wasn't born to follow and I'm not sure if I was born to lead, but what I'm certain is that I was born to fight my way through life and win. And have you to lead my life and teach me the good ones. I guess when it comes down to it everything happens for a reason, so smile through the tears, laugh at the pain, and love what you have not what you want.
I Fell for You & Found a Way Out but Every Time I look back at all our Precious & Memorable Memories We had Together, I lose focus & Fall Again.
So i smile to hide my feelings but they wanna explode...i wonder if i would ever feel the love i once had...maybe i will maybe i wont...who knows
And why is it i still love u, even when u broke my heart... u messed with my mind, and u tore my heart apart piece by piece. and i still love u. I just dont noe why..

2010-06-25T02:40:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAY GATEWAY!!!!!!!

2010-06-14T22:27:00.000-07:00

I've so much to update since the last 1 i update and it was 19 May.
I've been a lazy bum to update here, nothing special about my life..
Its been hard to move on huh. Its been a year still im trying.
Easy to said but difficult to forget.. IM happy wif life though even though its hard.
Im happy having my fren around me. The 1 that bringing me back up..
Not forgetting my cuzzy shes been there since start.
Thks for the helping hand lovedones.
I appreciate it alot. We did so much stuff together just to kill time..
And for which i learn

"When u keep Ur eyes open, Ur mouth shut and Ur ears open u learn a lot about people you thought you knew-eventually, and when the drama unfolds and u can watch karma in action." (karma is a B*ITCH!)

When the world is spinning, people around us is also moving.
So it dosent stop when sum1 leave u.
Life has been better.
Lovelife will be later on for me.
Im not ready for all the love life thingy.
Let me have the time only for me. Loving my self. Pampered myself.
Its a lie that i've not been contacting guys. But they are just fren. NO feeling or wat so ever.
Its hard to fall in love again.

Stop !

Im just looking forward for my holiday.
Not looking back at all. I just want to leave everything behind..

2010-05-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!

I HATE U!!
U'RE JUST THE SAME!
U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME!U'RE JUST THE SAME! I HOPE THAT ONE DAY U'LL FALL JUST LIKE HOW I DID.. AND THERE WASNT NO ONE AROUND TO PICK U UP! SHOO.. GO TO UR FAV PERSON THAT U'LL HAVE NOW N LATER U'LL SEE AT THE END OF THE DAY. KARMA IS A BITCH!

2010-04-13T21:13:00.000-07:00

He holds me when I start to cry, makes me smile with just his eyes. He shares my hopes, dreams, and fears. He wipes away all my tears. I love him without regret. It’s unfair to think so much of you when you’re not missing me at all, to cry when you never shed a tear, to love when you say words that hurt my heart. I just wonder why just when I learned to wait, it was when you never came. I wonder why just when I learned to laugh, it was when you made me cry. And I wonder why just when I’ve learned to love you, it was when you said goodbye.Everyday, I walk towards you hoping that I’d somehow get to be with you for at least a moment. But it’s hard for me to catch up when you’re also trying to catch up with someone else. And if time would come that I’d have to let you go, I’d let you believe that I fooled you. I know this would hurt but it would hurt more if you’ll find out that I loved you but I couldn’t fight for you.

It doesn’t hurt anymore. It keeps on repeating the same thing. Finally, I could smile again. But every once in a while, it comes back. I remember how I lost the only person I’ve ever loved and then I realize I still do.

Slowly, I broke down, tears fell from my eyes, my heart shattered into pieces, all the sweet memories played inside my mind. And like that I stayed while watching you walk out of my life. I needed someone so I tried to talk to you but you were in a hurry. I tried to call you but you said you were busy. I wanted to tell you how I feel, to tell you I love you. Now you’ll never know cause guess what? I just dont want u to noe..

2010-04-12T20:01:00.001-07:00

U wake me up way too early and u wake me up way too young. Had a chat with u the other day. You say i didnt learn bcos u said i was two face, im sum1 else when im with u n sum1 else without u. Even though i did tat the inside was the same. IS THERE ANY REHAB FOR MOVING ON??!! haizz.. I did, i did gave it all. Wanting it u to see in everthing tat i've done. But u just walk away... With all the talk n everything in mind i just alwaes have this " i have my own limits".

2010-04-10T19:21:00.000-07:00

Jay-Z Exposed

VENI-VIDI-VICI

I CAME-I SAW-I CONQUERED

Lyrics from 1 of Jay-z song

Encore

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[Verse Two]
[sighs] Look what you made me do, look what I made for you
Knew if I paid my dues, how will they pay you
When you first come in the game, they try to play you
Then you drop a couple of hits, look how they wave to you
From Marcy to Madison Square
To the only thing that matters in just a matter of years (yea)
As fate would have it, Jay's status appears
to be at an all-time high, perfect time to say goodbye
When I come back like Jordan, wearin the 4-5
It ain't to play games witchu
It's to aim at you, probably maim you
If I owe you I'm blowin you to smithereeens
Cocksucker take one for your team
And I need you to remember one thing (one thing)
I came, I saw, I conquered
From record sales, to sold out concerts
So muh'fucker if you want this encore
I need you to scream, 'til your lungs get sore

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1. He calls himself J HOVA = Jehovah

2. He said in his song D'EVILS (hmm devils...) that he DOES NOT PRAY TO GOD

3. it just so happens that when his song LUCIFER off the gray albumn is played backwards it says 666 MURDER MURDER JESUS! Youtube or google it .

4. His so called roc sign that he throws up is a masonic/illuminati sign knows as the all seeing eye if you know about masons/illuminati you will know this has EVERYTHING to do with the DEVIL.

5. HE SAYS HE IS A MASON in his new song with Rihanna and Kanye "Run this Town"HE LOOKS LIKE A DEVIL WORSHIPER ALL JOKES ASIDE.

2010-04-09T18:30:00.000-07:00

Beware

*Illuminati*

Promiscuity, worshiping of the DEVIL.(iblis/satans)
Read more about illuminati (http://www.rumormillnews.com/cgi-bin/archive.cgi?read=44292)

Celebrity Exposed

Lady Gaga

Lady Gaga (born Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta; March 28, 1986) is an American recording artist. She began performing in the rock music scene of New York City's Lower East Side. She soon signed with Streamline Records, an imprint of Interscope Records, upon its establishment in 2007. During her early time at Interscope, she worked as a songwriter for fellow label artists and captured the attention of Akon, who recognized her vocal abilities, and had her also sign to his own label, Kon Live Distribution.

Her debut album, The Fame, was released on August 19, 2008. In addition to receiving generally positive reviews, it reached number-one in Canada, Austria, Germany, and Ireland and topped the Billboard Top Electronic Albums chart. Its first two singles, "Just Dance" and "Poker Face", co-written and co-produced with RedOne, became international number-one hits, topping the Hot 100 in the United States as well as other countries. The album later earned a total of six Grammy Award nominations and won awards for Best Electronic/Dance Album Best Dance Recording. In early 2009, after having opened for New Kids on the Block and the Pussycat Dolls, she embarked on her first headlining tour, The Fame Ball Tour. By the fourth quarter of 2009, she released her second studio album The Fame Monster, with the global chart-topping lead single "Bad Romance", as well as having embarked on her second headlining tour of the year, The Monster Ball Tour. and

Lady Gaga is inspired by glam rock musicians such as David Bowie and Freddie Mercury, as well as pop music artists such as Madonna and Michael Jackson. She has also stated fashion is a source of inspiration for her songwriting and performances.^[1^] To date, she has sold over ten million albums and over thirty-five million singles worldwide.^[2]^[3]

1 Biography


	She talks about her peace sign tattoo. And She was a fan of John Lennon. She stayed 1 blk away from where he was assassinated. And a huge fan of The Beatles. (John Lennon was murdered 8 December 1980 (aged 40) and she was born 6 years later. So does that make sense??) They believed "All-seeing eye" redirects here. For other uses, see All-seeing eye (disambiguation). For Eye of God, see Eye of God (disambiguation). A Christian version of the Eye of Providence, emphasizing the triangle representing the Trinity. The Eye of Providence, or the all-seeing eye of God, is a symbol showing an eye often surrounded by rays of light or a glory and usually enclosed by a triangle. It is sometimes interpreted as representing the eye of God watching over humankind. (see Divine Providence).^[1]^[2][ If u guys take a closer look of each of her videos portraying all the signs of illuminati. And how she try to copy the ancient Egyptian ways. And her makeups n hair look the same. And check her dance sign of alwaes covering 1 eye. And 1 of her tattoo state Little monster.

2010-04-07T20:15:00.000-07:00

Suppose to be 4 years.. And im upset..
Love is another word for Buckle up and Hang on, because youll be taken for a ride. Somtimes goes fast, goes slow, gets scary, and most of the time amazing, but at sometime the ride will be over and another passenger will take your seat. :(

2010-04-03T03:13:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggers.. I noe it seems late to update about my bdae. I had lots of fun and im grateful to have everyone around me.. Im bless. And im the most happiest girl ever.. The person that i want him to be right by my side on my bithrday was also there. And would like to say thanks to everyone tat came by and the wishes and the presents.. I like all the presents.. So i let the picture do the talking aite.. ;)

So this was after party. He called me on saturday and say tat he was sick and wanted me to took care of him.. How cute can dis ex of mine be... He was sick on the day i had the bdae party on sat.. Was in 1days MC and when hosp again in the morning with me the next day and doct extended 2 more days.. Was having high fever.. Pity u..

This was on Wednesday. Still have the feeling of bdae party-ing..LOL!!

2010-03-16T02:51:00.000-07:00

Humans are humans..

If i were to say tat they r stupid, they will get angry.

But their attitude sulks.

Hah! Never get cheated. With their true-fullness heart to heart talking is actually a lie/ or i can say its a FAKE.

FUCK la bitches! Mulot bau longkang!

Bwh pulak bau hamis.

Ape nk jadi ngn perempuan skrg..

Kang2 kt smua lelaki. BODOH! MURAH! PENGEMIS!

Never thing u want fame by giving ur body to every of the guy in singapore.

But actually u can be friendly to everyone. STUPID BITCH!!

And 1 more thing never be nice wif sum1. Bcos u nvr get anything in return. LOL! Other way u were to be transparent...

2010-03-14T05:12:00.000-07:00

hello humans!

its been awhile i didnt gt to update my blog.so here it goes lifes is ok but there r some thing tat need to be added as e spices in life. smthing sweet but theres no where cn be find but it is 1 n only..

2010-03-03T00:11:00.000-08:00

So monday my trip was actually to ubi to booked my 2nd TP. But i was late and there is change of plans. So here we went to punggol to visit fyreisha and bby Zara. And after visiting we went to compass point to have dinner. So heres all the picture..

2010-02-20T10:21:00.000-08:00

my grudges is back again!!!!!!! That B.I.T.C.H. will never get respected till the day i die. I'll curse u whole family. And ur life will alwaes be bad as ever B.I.T.C.H. Juz rmmr my name. And hell is calling u!! :)

I can't sleep thinking about how much u meant a whole lot to me.
I can't eat just to busy thinking bout everything.
I just dont noe where to start and where to end it.
What i see is everything changing.
I dont noe either for the worse or good.
I don't accept about wat he had done to me and he don't accept what i had done to him too.
Seriously i dont noe how to start the conversation and start talking to him about wat i had felt. It just hurt be deeper and deeper.
People will never understand how i felt.
And what i went through.
I went through alot and tat alot tat left with noting change but become worst tat when i became regreting in everything i've done and sacrifice all the time i had jus to dedicate to u.
haizz....
This is wat i get in return..
I just think tat in life we have to be heartless.
I JUST DONT NOE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-16T07:31:00.000-08:00

We had lots and lots of FUN on Valentine's day with family.
Went jb.
Shop until cannot tahan...
Makeup-less...
Lets the picture do the talking aite..
Toodles~~~

2010-01-29T01:46:00.000-08:00

Lets give it a pass with the sulk friends attitude.

Life is a journey after all. Sometimes we are up and sometimes we are down.

DUH with the bad attitude.

Look at the brightside.

I've learn alot.

Skrng nie kite chillex kacang je k..

Bbygirls will alwaes come for the rescue.

Thks bby stitch!

Without u i think i'll b sulk too.

Being happy is not forever.

BUilding up a life is hard.

Imagine that u had to build a house.

= tiring

=impatient

=hard work

=ending up happiness

that is same goes to life building up some friendship and lovelife.

Just dont giveup.

Be someone better.

And earn that respect of urs.

Be someone useful not harmful.

2010-01-28T09:07:00.000-08:00

Friends. Some friends stay some friends go.

Life is a bitch. I've just notice that i've either been delete or blocked by her through FB.

It freaks me. Just a small matter like this and make it a big deal.

Ego? Anger? Everyone have that. Everyone have limits in everything.

But this time u really step on me.

I feel like u betray me as a friend.

U dont even make me one dis time.

Ignoring us. Make us like a rubbish to u.

When u feel like calling then u called rite?

Seeing u in court other day and the judge make the sentence wanna make my tears drop.

Called everyone to help u. And lucky one of it willing to help.

But this wat i get in return.

Wakeup in the morning juz to accompany u to the court.

My heart was pumping when i heard u had to stay for like a week two.

Eventhough its like sometimes but then im as a fren really doesnt want to see u suffer.

But dis is how u treat me.

Den its ok....

Peace.

So from now on u dont need to hear from me no more.

Thks for everything. The goods and the bad.

And appreciate the time that u had spending wif me.

Its the memoriable ones.

2010-01-26T01:23:00.000-08:00

Thanks for lying DEAR FRIEND..

I really appreciate allot whole heartedly..

Heard alot about u..

And all seems negative..

Good for me that im ready for anything.

And i noe this thing gonna happen sooner or later..

I seem to be ready in everything for now.

To negative to positive, to positive to negative.

Thumbs up to anis everyone.

And thanks to u, i dont trust u no more.

Dis is for u *MIDDLE FINGER UP*. :)

2010-01-23T06:06:00.000-08:00

I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE CRYING!!

BUT DONT NOE FOR WHAT REASON!!

I FEEL LIKE FCUKING HELPLESSSSSS!!!!!!

I NEED TO BUCK UP!!!!!!

PEOPLE AT HOME IRRITATED ME!

N I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GO OUT!

IM SERIOUSLY STRESSSSSS!!

2010-01-20T17:04:00.000-08:00

Life is a B*TCH!
Is never easy to lead a happy life.
Its just beginning of the year.
And here im falling again.
Pray for the best.
Its been hard expressing what i had inside.
Is never easy being a human with full of responsibilities.
Being heartless is better.
So i dont even feel a pinch either.
I HATE FCUKING LIARS!
AND I LOVE FCUKING HONESTY!
Never tried to be close to someone who love to lied ending up u feel hurt.
Friends have been a cupcake to me.
We had catching up and lots more of catching up to do.
Making new frends is no harm.

But giving on HOPE theres HARM. LOL!!

2010-01-17T21:26:00.000-08:00

GUYS WITH THE SAME OLD TRICKS!
What with the no helo or anything.
And just straight up u have msn? Hp no.?
Its going on my nerve!
Its so like dangerously desperately!! hah!
This type of guys just dont deserve a good girl to be by their side.
I just wish this type of guys deserve a karma the rest of their life!!
IRRITS EY! DASAR JANTAN SUNDAL!
Seriously guys not enough with one.
Been there done that.

2010-01-17T08:01:00.000-08:00

Start with a Fresh day ahead and positive mind thinking.
Im like awake in the morning already and look at the time now its 7.38am.
I was helping mom in the kitchen at 6+ in the morning.
I only had about 4hrs of sleeping and im fresh.
Im jus to excited to sexcited with the camera later on with GF.
Destination today is to the beach but ofcos not in the afternoon but late nite. duh~
haha!! Its so hot in the afternoon!
Alot of catching up to do too!!
I just miss the old time. Old daes.... :(
Where we girls spend the whole day like that there was no tomorrow. tehee;)
Sleepover and late nite snacks.
And it was too awesome.
Happy to say this that SINGLE is more happier then being attached.
What i mean is just not doing all the noty stuff wif gf but we dont have to think about the other party its just ease at mind. :)
But in the other word there's lonely too but i still have to overcome that.
But nah.. Not to worries i have frens along my side.
And im missing their companion too.
Late nite supper, late night slack to the east and to the west and not to forget flea market and yahoga at theebeach. Im praying hard that along this road im strong enuf to go through all kinds of thick and thin and there always this two leg of mind that gonna make me stand up no matter how hard i fall.*fingers cross*
Gonna update soon with all the pictures attached.
Much Love Anis<3>

P.S:

I know you're scared, baby
But, you gotta give me everything, yeah

Let me be the one who can take you
From all the things you've seen
And if you trust in me
I can be there for anything you need

And give it all to me, baby
Don't you run from me, baby
I'll give you every little piece of me
No, I won't leave out a thing, 'cuz I

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
It got you feeling like this can't be right
But, I won't hurt you, I'm down for you, baby

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
It got you feeling like this can't be right
But, I won't hurt you, I'm down for you, baby

Let me show you, love can be easy
If you just let it be
Nothing is promised, but I believe if
If you give it everything, trust

I'll give you everything that I've got
I won't stop until you get it right
All the trust and all the love
You know we got a lot, baby

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
It got you feeling like this can't be right
But, I won't hurt you, I'm down for you, baby

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
It got you feeling like this can't be right
But, I won't hurt you, I'm down for you, baby

I trust you, baby

I trust you, I love you, I want you, I need you
Baby, I breathe you, never leave you
Life wouldn't be the same without you

I trust you and I love you and I want you and I need you
Baby, I breathe you, never leave you
Life wouldn't be the same without you

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
It got you feeling like this can't be right
But, I won't hurt you, I'm down for you, baby

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
It got you feeling like this can't be right
I won't hurt you, I'm down for you, baby

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
I won't hurt you, baby no, in your life
I love you, baby oh
I don't care what you say about us, oh no, no, no, no, no, no

In your life, I won't hurt you, baby no
In your life, I won't hurt you, baby no
In your life, I love you, baby yeah, oh

xoxo

2010-01-16T15:28:00.001-08:00

The feeling is yet too strong.
But silence was playing along.
Heart beating was damn fast.
Was questioned but i cant ans.
Everything was playing on my mind.
Its like living in the Fairy tale story for now but not so long.
I just need my bitches now so tat we can bitch around. LOL!
Had early breakfast. And was unplanned.

Pictures of last Wednesday a trip to ButterFactory.

2010-01-16T03:49:00.000-08:00

Where were you when I said I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you.
Thinking of all the times we shared.

I remember when my heart broke.
I remember when I gave up loving you.
My heart couldn't take no more of you.
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when I walked out.
I remember when I screamed I hated you.
But somehow deep inside still loving you.
Sad and lonely.

No one knew all the pain I went through.
All the love I saved deep in my heart for you.
Didn't know where I would go, where I would be.
But you made me leave.
And plus my heart it just, it just kept telling me so.

There was nowhere else to go, oh.
Nobody else to turn to, no.
For the rest of my life, I promised myself I will love me first genuinely.

I remember when I walked out.
I remember when I gave up loving you.
My heart couldn't take no more of you.
So sad and lonely, hey.
I remember when I stormed out.
I remember when I gave up loving you.
I was sad and lonely.

ps: my heart dont change. n qn wats the reason. "ure special".

2010-01-12T17:36:00.000-08:00

Yg penting die black and pink ey!! I loike!

Look at the time now. Its 9.37am. And I'm widely awake!
haha! For the very 1st in 2010 anis bgn siang sey!!
hahha! I'm here just to upload all the pictures.
Just too lazy to update about life.
Life has been great not to forget theres alwaes obstacles too!

2010-01-10T19:17:00.000-08:00

jangan pernah katakan bahwa
cintamu hanya untukku
karna kini kau telah membaginya

maafkan bila memang kini
harus kutinggalkan dirimu
karna hatiku selalu kau lukai

tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yang ku rasa

ku menangis membayangkan
betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
kau duakan cinta ini
kau pergi bersamanya

ku menangis melepaskan
kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
harus slalu kau tahu
aku lah hati yang telah kau sakiti

p/s: same old tricks jerk!!! LAME!! U cant play me!!

2010-01-08T09:56:00.000-08:00

To all my friends,
Thanks for making it happend. I enjoy and appreciate every sec and min there.
Had an awesome party. Eventhough its like 7 of us.
ps: people say wat u gonna say but i know how to take care of myself.
Im home safely...

2010-01-06T19:09:00.000-08:00

Honesty is the most important thing for me.
I learn alot in the past and i dont wish to repeat the same mistakes again.
Just take this slow and easy.
Learn tat sumone personality harder next time.
Den u'll noe.
Im still young and theres no need to be in love real soon.
Love will come to u eventually.
For the time being i just need to pampered myself and spend the quality time with family and friends.
I dont think i wasted my past few years back its just earning of experience.
Thks to u tat i met u in the past and now i really noe wat life really meant and u thought me alot.
And yes life is cruel. No one is waiting for u. U r the one that bringing urself up when ur down.
And first priority will be my flesh and blood of family.
And yes bring that "RESPECT".
And earn it!

2010-01-05T21:57:00.000-08:00

Day by day. Prayer after prayer.

Never will i failed to pray that god make me the strongest girl ever.

After the day he left. I became weak n more weak.

Problem after problem but hey i go through.

I feel theres alot more responsibility that i have to handle.

Just a promise from me to u tat i will take care of wat we've built when we started to live our life.

Life has been ok good. After falling i still can stand up with my own leg.

Just that theres not enough rest.

Spending all the qulity time with lovedones.

But for now i just miss the brother and sister hood. :(

Frends hve been a sweetest drugs ever.

Just never fail to make me smile meeting after meeting.

So yesterday night the westsides dude came across to meet the eastsides babe.

Having breakfast at Mc'donalds. Just the 4 of us.

Nothing much doing just chit chatting.

After the long MIA nana had given us.

After which we proceed to Lin's crib to watch horror movie.

But then the westside dude just wsn't interested and intend to sleep.(his hobby ;) )

After watching straight head back to my crib to have my beauty rest becos im werking at 7pm to 4 am . And guess wat i slept at 12+ in the noon.

Btw thks to all the people that had gone through the ups and down wif me. Even though i was merajok, sad and happy..hurhur...:)

2010-01-04T06:08:00.000-08:00

Behind those happiness alwaes lies a liar.

People do change. But as if i care.

The main thing that i have to concentrate is ME.

Not others. I just have step up a little more.

Dont be afraid of wat people gonna say bout me.

Im ME. So dont like me, go away from my LIFE.

I hate the FEELING OF LEFTING OUT.

I might be busy. But not too busy.

Im just one call away guys.

IM totally pissed off with all the nite mares n sweet dreams.

They dont come in reality.

If only i have 1 wish.

I would wish that "what are mine is mine".

Get it??!

All alone at home sitting and thinking wats gonna happen to my future.

I just cant be afraid of wats gonna happen.

Just dont look back. And spit everything u had in mind.

I HATE LAME PERSONALITY!!!!!!

2010-01-03T14:36:00.000-08:00

We had fun with the late night MOVIE ;)
BK-ing..
Subway-ing...
Mc'donald-ing...
Baron-ing...
Stout-ing....
Kacang-ing...
Cam whore-ing...
last but not least.............
Bullshit-ting!!!!!!!

2010-01-01T14:09:00.000-08:00

COUNTDOWN WAS GREAT!!! :)

But sadly the kaki's wasn't there :(

Next will be on the 20th Jan.. Nana Bdae ok?? hehe!!

2009-12-31T20:22:00.000-08:00

Currently jus finish editting my blog.
Changes of Photos and newest updates.
2010 is coming really soon. About few hours later.
Can't wait for the count down.
2009 was threat for me. Theres alot of souls that coming n out of my life.
Name it! The bad souls and the good souls. All was treated goodly by me.
Just some curse made by my mouth.
Accidentally......lallala....
Old frends and new frends are loved.
New things have been learn n bad ones are to be thrown ya!
No more making mistakes.
As i wish and pray for this 2010 countdown.
I will be more dicipline and may good things come to be.
Be it in work, frends or anything.

I've gtg for now.
ps.roller coaster is waiting for me.

2009-12-30T00:24:00.000-08:00

Helo fellow bloggers. Was damn bored and was surveying my Horoscope of astrology. And found out this.. Currently am FB-ing with games of roller coaster. Addicted games;)
So people i've jus change my email so add me up at my new email ya frends!!
pinkishme@hotmail.com

2009-12-29T10:19:00.000-08:00

A FRIEND INNEED IS A FRIEND INDEED;)

(THKS EH WAWA N NANA!! I WASNT AWARE!!)

Along this journey of ups and down.

Came dis UNKNOWN guy i met down the road.

For which i've KNOWN now. :p

Theres no need a HOPE jus have FAITH.

I cant predict but time will tell.

Alwaes expect the unexpected.

2009-12-28T10:45:00.000-08:00

Hello human bloggers.

Its been such along tiime that i've not been updating. Life has been great. Theres more to come in life. More of the ups and down. As far that im still here thats mean im STRONG.;p

Lovedones has been great. Being by my side. U noe who u are people. I love all my frend to much as i've corncern about mine.

As i have known by that someone that u were to come here my blog. Yes boy. Ur welcome here ehk, ehk, ehk???!!heeehehe!! Sto being anoying disturbing me bout my past.

Read dis people...

I'VE MOVE ON!! AND LIFE BEEN GREAT!!

Hope that everything will go out smoothly as im trying to find my lost soul that have been long dissapear..:)

For u boy(if u were to read dis),

Its been great knowing u. But hey take it smooth and steady aite.

Dont be scared of wat u wanted to do in life.

Think straight and theres no need to be confuse. As u noe im here for u to talk to.

Okey back on track i'll update soon babies;)

2009-12-27T10:23:00.000-08:00

PROVE ME THAT GUYS ARENT THE SAME!!!!!

FRENS TAT ARE CLOSEST TO ME, EXCUSE ME FOR BEING A SHIT HEAD OK??

IM DONE WITH EVERYTHING AND I THINK IT ALL OVER AGAIN...

2009-12-06T13:30:00.001-08:00

I still searching for my lost soul. Wondering and still thinking.

Some part of me is still unsure. Everyone let's find some soul searching..

2009-12-04T08:05:00.002-08:00

its e 1st week of dec. and there is still silent going on. eventhough tat he made e decision but i do still keep to e old promises. my heart for him nvr change. e 1 n only tat i will keep thru e end. if he is moving on its ok. i juz pray e best for him. dnt c me as im smiling n there is nothin wrong.deep inside my heart,pain ull nvr c.

2009-11-23T10:57:00.000-08:00

Here i am infront of my desktop.
Updating my blog.. Still am thinking what to update for November and its gonna end soon.
yahoo!! Gonna get my pay soon. And hari raya haji is also coming.
I think lets upload the picture and let them do the talking..

p.s: some part of me is still unsure.

Did some makeup for Prom night.

Before

Girls Night with the ladies.

2009-11-17T12:30:00.000-08:00

its been so long ive update e blog of mine. lappy is still with dad. ok lets strt about life.ok life is been unfair to me lately. im halfly dead and halfly alive. making myself busy with work and friend. juz wanted to slip tat somebody frm my mind. i juz cnt stop thinking. tp is coming soon. so here i am upgrading my life. am searching for fulltime job for nw. bucking my life up at where i left it wasted. love life was a fullstop for him but not for me. i noe wat im feeling and doing. dont call me stupid as i noe wat im leading in life is juz a matter of time i juz put it on gods hand.if he mend to b mine den its mine. its hard letting go bcos wat i've gone through is way to far n im stil holding to tat promises u ask me "to go through thick n thin". n i noe 1 day to tat some1 whose makin my love life down e drain i hope u hv a miserable life to come. friends has been e cupcake of mine.makin me smile eventhough they noe deep inside theres an empty feelings.. 4 u tat i noe ull be reading dis ilytm..n i noe u noe y..

2009-11-02T22:02:00.000-08:00

im falling down again but this time i wll bring ownself backup again. life sucks but i gotta say this last n for all..im gonna be on my own.

2009-10-30T15:24:00.000-07:00

Its been so so long i've not updated my blog.
I feel so lazy this pas few days. Last week end was full with joy. Celebrating Yanie' s advance birthday at Pasir Ris pit. Time check is 6.31am and im still nt sleeping. And later im off to work. Updating my blog using desktop for now. Bcos the laptop was kept by my father and dnt noe for WHAT reasons.So sory girls i can't update those pit photo from digi cam but only on my hp. And im gonna update on my makeovers yesterday.

2009-10-16T06:56:00.000-07:00

Look at todays day above!! Its Friday... Lalalalalala!! Yeah2! Yan will be home!!

And time check is 6.52am. And this is my 2nd off day and tomorrow is Deepavali and im working from 6pm to 2am. And today we girls have plan to do, is to eat tulang ramai2..hee;) And Sunday anna and me are having girls out to Escape Theme park.. Yahhhoooooooo!!!!!!

2009-10-15T04:48:00.000-07:00

Fara: Love how u do ur make up.. Nice... I still dunno how to use false lashes properly.. =(
me:me too.. Im loving ur makeup..practice make perfect darla..hee:)

Iva: Hey Prettyhead,Thanks For Dropping By.Wow..I Love Your Make Up Skills!Anw,You're Linked.. (:
me:replied;)

Yanie: u ok darling?feel free to beep me okay beceng
me:im fine..mcm biase jgk.will beep u up soon darla..

anna: da lah,tkmo sedih2...tp aku suke tgk kau nanges and mulot mcm jubo ayam...hhahaha...
me:eh2 tk la ko tk privacy kn..jgn kecoh2..

passerby: love your blogskin
me:thks alot..

lin: indeed movin on n makin a decision is abit tricky cz we will nvr predict the future bt as time past we will be happy cz we finally make it:)
me:im gonna take dis an advice..thks btw..

Bloghopper: Hello (: You're seriously gergous ! tc
me:hi! Thks for dropping by..

lin: tktau malu betol puji diri ah ni nana!haha cute eh?cm nis kite makeover dier per kasi lawa cm on per?nana?haha
me:tau tkpe..ok on kite rogol die jadi kan die sya..hi..rah.. suci dan segar..haha!!

Yanie: majok ar.kau ckp aku bole.hahaha.oh aku ckp aru nk ltk gmbr aku.hmph.lol
me:sape ckp bler ko ckp aru aku letak gmbr ko? mmg kadang2 aku tk letak pic kt blog pon tkpe pe tapi ade dalam hati...;)

nana: yg bwk kereta tu sape eh? yg pakai shades??? cute lah dier.. hehe
me: ni pon lagi 1 puji diri sndiri..mcm nk tamplong je..

anna: hehehe....kyute per gmbr aku..nyheheehee..thnks bacen...ily....xoxo
me: alamak eh!!! mane leh puji diri sndiri.. aku je blh puji diri sndiri k..haha!wecome bacen,ilyt..

2009-10-14T14:57:00.000-07:00

Head back home after work of 10hrs non-stop hit. Only for important break.gheh;)

Received a bad news from lovedone of my bff was having some problem back in Jb after going back to Singapore. Still searching for her and still wondering where she is now. Praying that she'll be fine. Sorry can't help u when time that you are inneed. Please please kindly beep me when you have already read this. Im worried. Tried to called but 1st you didnt answer and 2nd u rejected my call. And i ask anna to msg bcos im really dried up before end of the month due to some reason. Sorry my dear garfiel beep me up ok.

And was doing nothing at home, the only thing is anna entertaining me after work. She showed me lot of stupid stuff in the net. It was a video done by her bf friends. Dumb ass videos:) Laughing all way through the video. And by watching the video remind me of my late brother NS life video in his old phone. Looking through the phots and videos back. Miss him TOO much. I cant even express it for now. Only god knows what are the misses feel like. The feeling of turning back the clock is there. But theres only in fairytales magic story. Not for reality. Hey life have to move on aite. Looking through te family pictures and found mine and yans photos in there. And there i was flashing back of how he get that photos. He ask me to send him bluetooth as he dont have any of my couple pic wif yan. I feel so appreciated and feel happy back den bcos he was really satisfied that i had dated yan. Yan is the only guy that can get along well and the only guy that i bring to meet my family.For now every photos that are kept and took is the memoriable one for me. Ok cut the sad story. The happy part is YANIE'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON. And there will be a BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!!! But but sorry friend present next month yer..Sudah kering..:) Time checked 6.34am and am ready to get my rest and the other happy part that i'll be having 2 days off..YAHOO!!!

And btw click on dis http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5v2Rr1QuJ2k to entertain YOU. Its bastard magot faggot face hilarious fcuk or mariah carey male wanabeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i shall say!! Or can i give him a tight slap on his face for this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lf7174PUSnk&feature=related he spoiled MY BEYONCE!hahaahhah!!! Or i can say watch his own PROFILE on Youtube http://www.youtube.com/user/hitmanbreakeroftheye (hit man breaker of the ye) oh! i think he f*#$! forget to put the "e" in and come let me modified the name for u "Let me break you eye".

Al-fatihah Allahyarham Saliman Bin Othman

The picture was kept by him and the caption was anis n' yan.

2009-10-12T22:53:00.000-07:00

Head back home late night. Been pressurize at home. Had to go out from this little house just for awhile. Had a chat with lovedones. Thanks for being there. I seriously appreciate it alot. That is what i really need ur listening ears when im really down. And aku tahu aku banyak bbual. Kalau boleh aku nk bbual je 24/7. Yesterday was nothing in common. But i know i talk it all out with the person that need to hear. As to rewind it back i think he get very irritated by me. I can't stay still when im seriously in shit. Head back home when everythng is cooled down. Planing to watch "the exorcist" but then i intend to sleep. And now im awake with a headache on my head and nothing to think and the thing i want to do is blabering.Yack yack yack. Made a really cold ice milo that i think would freeze my brain for awhile. Looking throw the mirror while blogging thinking what more can i say. And know i have nothing to say.

2009-10-12T05:57:00.000-07:00

All this while im playing the Miss Nice Girl and follow the flow.

But to end up this way is unfair.

I've alwaes close 1 eye in evertyhing that u do that hurt me.

I may not confronted but i just want to see how long.

And i have my limits to it.

And i have drawn a line on it.

If one step u were touch that line and thats it.

Its over. I mean it for now.

I've tried my very hard to put my anger and ego away.

Just to get away from fighting.

But to think it again its my life.

I have to make a decision not others.

If i cant really take it, den its better to move on.

2009-10-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

HIDUP MACAM GINI SLALU BEST!!!!!!!!

THANKS EH!!!

2009-10-08T11:21:00.000-07:00

I have beautiful b*tches around me;)

2009-10-08T05:52:00.000-07:00

2009-10-08T00:28:00.000-07:00

Lovedones has been great. Been there through thick n thin. Even though theres no time for us somtimes we make time.;P

Pass few week they been drown and here goes the happiness now.

So all my gerls, throw all the memories and bring the future forward alright.

Change for the better reason and learn from mistakes.

Family problems are forever but just rmmbr how angry u are they are still ur family.

But if u really cant take it anymore im just 1 phone call away.

Moving on is easy to say but is hard to do.

AS a friend we try, try to bring u up when love knocks u down.

2009-10-05T03:31:00.000-07:00

Im forever in a confusion state.

Still waiting and waiting.

For what i see we still a pair but only the ego was there.

We are alwaes suffer because of our big EGO.

Just never any of us surrender but we want to be together.

As we grow we learn to see and feel each other feeling.

In fact nothing in life can be true.

Lovedones and friends never fail to bring me up or pull me up when im falling.

They always be there for me when theres time indeed or inneed.

Either when im happy or sad, name it they will always be there.

Somtime they can even sense me when im feeling so down.

See how we were bonding we each other..

We were so connected like twins not twins not triplets but theres alot of us..

Alot of things in my mind but i just dont know how can i put it in a words.

Im having my off for today. Im gonna ease my mind and im gonna do something that i always love to do. So i guess just wait for my nxt post so u'll noe wat are the things i love todo..

Love u all my friends:)

2009-10-02T23:12:00.000-07:00

Im pissed!! Pissed with this laptop.

And all of the memory card that was with me.

All of the things cannot be deleted and paste.

I tried to copied to my laptop of all the things and tried to paste it back to my memory card that have been formated. And it still cant be done:<

Which of the part that this lappy dont understand??!!

Btw i've booked TP already.. Like atlast! And its gonna be on 23 of dec.

Terkopek duit aku.. Butt then it comes to worth it right at the end of the day...??

thks to Wawa to accompany me..heee:)

Ok going out later for my threading:)

2009-10-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

Tell me what happened this time
Made you come back again
I find out only see you when luck deserts you
If this is your idea of happiness
Then let's be clear
Those words of yours ain't working anymore

Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no, no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

I know you're busy so if you gotta go
Then go but don't forget to leave my heart
I stayed around for you but
You're no where to be found now
Once again here you are

Cause I'm always giving
Here waiting while you're living
I need a new beginning
Oh, I'm not the girl I used to be with you

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

I've settled for less
When I stayed with you but no more
Cause you aint worth waiting for, ooh, uuuuh

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
(Don't you know it takes much more)
To keep a girl like me
No more waiting for you to change
(Waiting for you, no, no, no, no)
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain baby no-no (uh-oh)
Don't you know it takes more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

(Uh-oh) Don't you know it takes more
(Uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
(Uh-oh) Don't you know it takes much more
You're the only one not worth waiting for

You think maybe that I'm just so easy
You can come in and out my life like you please
But baby no
Don't you know it takes much more
No-no, no more waiting for you to change
Don't you know that you bringing flowers
Won't stop the rain, no, oh
Don't you know it takes much more, oh

2009-09-27T18:10:00.000-07:00

2009-09-26T11:47:00.000-07:00

2009-09-24T16:18:00.000-07:00

I got that feeling that somthing is not right somewhere.

I wonder what is it. My instict? Lets not talk about it.

This is what life is all about right.

Theres always somthing bad gonna happen sooner or later.

If theres alwaes a good things happen its gonna be bored.

So somtimes u have to ride some thrill roller coaster and u have to take a risk.

Everything that u do is got to do with the name call "risk".

U want somthing that beyond ur needed u have to bare with RISK.

get it? U want it, u come n get it.

What make people change? Surrounding or to much thinking make people change?

That im not sure.

2009-09-21T15:20:00.000-07:00

What u see is what u get.

I didnt try to faithful but i did.

I didnt whine.

But ur attitude really make me like some1 nothing to you.

Im crushed for now.

Feel like running away from all this shit.

I guess i should surrendered..

2009-09-21T10:46:00.000-07:00

Just some pictures to be shared.

No mood.. chao!

2009-09-19T06:19:00.000-07:00

Disini aku ingin menyusun sepuluh jari jemari meminta maaf kepada kawan2 sekeliling ku yg Selama ini aku membuat sakit hati, bebual tk tgk kiri, ketut sana sini, memaki hamun tk disedari dan macam2 lagi... Harap halal kn la makan minom aku ye..

Selamat hari raya frends!!

2009-09-16T15:20:00.000-07:00

You are there and I am here
thinking about how much
I love you
thinking about how much
I respect you
thinking about how much
I miss you

You are there and I am here
thinking about how much
I cannot wait to meet you
thinking about how
I will appreciate more than ever
the time we will spend together
I love you..

ps:Yes ar!! 1 more day!! Tmrw he will be home sweet home;)

His 8th day

2009-09-15T23:35:00.000-07:00

I jus woke up shockly bcos of the call that i recive from work.

Is this funny or wat? They were asking me whether on Sun or Mon that i can go to work?

SO i aswered "is it Raya?So ok im not going to work on Raya bcos im celebratin it."

In the other note i was checking..So yah! I have a "STALKER" here..

"so u must be reading and reading and reading my blog huh? Keep on updating about my life huh? So ok after reading dont forget to leave ur link aite or u juz dont have any blog and jus want to be some updated people or i can say KPO. MYOB ok?Where is just ur life?Are u not unemployed or somthing until u dont noe wat todo when serving the internet rather den enter my blog pge-_-"

I CAN'T WAIT TILL FRIDAY:)

2009-09-15T15:49:00.000-07:00

This was taken in 2006 when we were going to Bazaar Geylang.
I miss this guy too much.
And it is LOVE CONFUSION.
I keep telling myself not to talk about dis.
But i cant help it.
Just hush!

7th days

2009-09-14T16:42:00.000-07:00

As for some people Monday is BLUE..

And as for me?? Monday is freaking RAINBOWS..

Listening to his new experience that now he had to serve, make me feel the sense that he is now being more MAN'LY;)

Im happy for him if he is happy. Serving the nation. And hope he'll get wat he wants.

Although the silence missses we still do the talking on the phones.

I just cant wait for him to be home.

ps.4 more days...:)

miss the old times......................

2009-09-13T20:04:00.001-07:00

When all the ladies is "SINGLES".

When boredom strikes.

Job hunting!!!!!!!

2009-09-13T15:54:00.000-07:00

GEISHA-JIKA CINTA DIA

terlampau sering kau buat air mataku
tak pernah kau tahu dalamnya rasa cintaku
tak banyak inginku jangan kau ulangi
menyakiti aku sesuka kelakuanmu
ku bukan manusia yang tidak berpikir
berulang kali kau lakukan itu padaku

jika cinta dia jujurlah padaku
tinggalkan aku disini tanpa senyumanmu
jika cinta dia ku coba mengerti

teramat sering kau membuat patah hatiku
kau datang padanya tak pernah kutahu
kau tinggalkan aku disaat ku butuhkan mu
cinta tak begini selama kutahu
tetapi ku lemah karena cintaku padamu

I love todays sunday;)

2009-09-13T14:18:00.000-07:00

Atlast i get to talk to my onenonly..

I was actually working from 6 to 12.

And there i cabot for awhile to have a chat with him.

I just miss him too much.

So after work i went home straight to settle down.

At 2+ going 3 when nana's having her break time i meet nana, her patner and anna to do somthing that arent suppose to do..

haha!!KECOH2!!

2009-09-12T10:23:00.000-07:00

My Saturday night call is ruin due to traffic jam in malaysia..DAMN!! Im so damn mad... I seriously wanted to have a chat with him:(

4th day

2009-09-11T09:58:00.000-07:00

Now it feels misses so bad. Its only the 4th day. I cant get myself to sleep after sahur. Jus kept counting the days. And for today will be another 7 more days. I was working night today. So i dont talk much to him on the phone and he was also saving the phone battery. So im just waiting for Saturday call. haiz.. imissubacin!

3rd Day

2009-09-10T04:56:00.000-07:00

Im totally full off energy after sleeping the whole day. Actually today's plan is to wake up early and went out with my lil sister. But we over slept. haha! We was suppose to finish our frames by today and was suppose to wash all the family photos, bcos i want to hang it at my room. But end up we woke up late. After wake up i msg him that i jus woke up. But den he reply "ish3x..Ns jgk ah bole ajar kau! G sign on! Da kemas bilik blom?"LOL;) actually blom abis kemas. But den i replied him lagi skit.heh;)So before he bkout mesti kene settle all those thing tat are suppose to throw. I miss him truckloads!!! Waiting for the night to talk to him. Tmrw im working from 6pm to 12am. I hope tmrw i also get to talk to him(fingers cross). Bcos normally he called me at 10+. Panjang umor, was blogging about him. Suddenly i received a msg from him "call me". hahah!! Sunguh gumbira la sgt!!hahah! Straight away i call him with an excited reaction aku peh bacin hp blom outgoing free aku da kol die. Lucky he told me asl tk pakai telefone rumah.hahah!! ILOVEULABACIN!!

bye;)

LOVE CONFUSION

2009-09-09T14:00:00.000-07:00

2nd Day

2009-09-09T04:57:00.000-07:00

Today marks down the 2nd day of his trip. As for me im at home cleaning out my bedroom. Actually today is my working day, but i have my frend to replace it for me. Im halfly down wit my bedroom. And here i am blogging and blabbering i cant wait til night when the time that i can talk to him. I miss his voice to much and really yearning for his hugs. I did msg him and told him tat i juz woke up and i didnt turn up for work today and i said i'll be staying at home cleaning my room. And his reply was "ok.. Tkcr..Kemas blik tu..Nnti i bkout i nk tgk da kemas.." I was smiling to myself.*blergh* Actually when i was waiting for his msg i was fastly asleep..haha! But hey! Im happy he do still rmbr me... ILOVEHIMONLYHIIM.

2009-09-08T17:38:00.000-07:00

Call me whatever u feel like calling. I noe its only a day. But i just miss him like alot. He never to leave me far away like this before, ok liar. Only when i went for a holidays for 3 to 4days. But for now he leave me for like 10 days. I've been leaving him msg. Wondering wat is he doing and everything. Hows the food over there..and etc. Im just worried sick. Im not making him like one big baby, but hey, he is serving his 1st NS during fasting. How can i not worried sick. I think is its gonna be tough over there. For now i always put my phone by my side as i get a beep from him. I feel so far away just now when i was talking to him. Overall i feel appreaciated.:'( ..

2009-09-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

Pictures;

Outdated and newly pics.

Naked face of mine.

Woodlands.

Pizzahut at grandlink.

Tampines.

I just cant keep my mouth to shut.I've been saying that i miss him.And i've been bugging him to meet me.heh;)People that are close to me noe y eh..And im so sad la friend.. But wat to do.. I hope he is meeting me today. Still waiting and waiting. I just want to spend a day wif u la.. Btw life is too complicated for me these years. Am i or not still there <3.And i just don't noe the feelings for the other party. Im just trying my best to gain in back. But somtimes i just feel so insecure. But after reading the old messages really built my confidence back. But im still lost and dont noe wats gonna happen next.

2009-09-03T03:05:00.000-07:00

For now i think i should take a bow on love. Bcos people sometimes just dont appreciate that they were loved. I think for now i should backout. Is not that i dont love him anymore is just that i really have to stop thinkking about my feeling and let him be happy.

Im sorry love for all the nonsence. But i noe im a change girl for now.

And i noe u are more happier with the other party.

2009-08-28T20:08:00.000-07:00

Currently im listening "wait for you".

I went home early from work yesterday.

Receive some bad news from anna.

And i really didn't notice those msg from him.

And today also am taking off day.

Yan's mum just pass away.

I just get bck home from attending the funeral.

Nothing much to elaborate.

chao!

2009-08-20T23:38:00.000-07:00

Argh!!! I want this phone so bad.

Its a JUICY COUTURE SIDEKICK.

And it is super rear here in singapore.

But i just dont know isit worth it or not.

For now i try to search for the cheapest ones..

And yesterday i just send an email to one of the supplier but i just dont noe whether it can be trusted or not. And it cost 274.771 SGD INCLUDING SHIPPING COST .

But i've been receive bad comment about this phone.

WE have to unlocked something like dat. And its cost less ten S$100 in ebay each.

But this phone really getting on my nerve. heh;)

Im still thinking whether to get that phone or just stick wif Singapore phone.

Or i would rather survey at Sim Lim?? hmm..

Currently just finish tidying my bedroom due to lack of givingsome love inside here. *blergh* For soooo long i didnt clean my bedroom and is like at last. And now im updating my blog and playing pet society for a mean time. And afterwards have to get dolled up and go to work. And finish at 2am. And yeah, gonna Sahur at home with my dear family. And im kinda miss that brother of mine. He has gone for like 2years already. On 5th Aug was the 2 years. And i noe he will be coming back home soon it is becos of ramadhan. Insyallah.

2009-08-18T21:44:00.000-07:00

To that special someone,
As i was saying ur the wonderful things that god ever given me.
And u, u show the right path of life that i should lead.
Even though im stuborn to hear all the nags.
But end of the day u change me to a new person.
I understand that this is not a fairytale stories.
But in reality you treat me fairly.
Even ur word did hurt me alot to think it through it comes to worth.
I've been blind but u made me see.
Its complicated now, but i noe deep down inside we still have the heart for each other.
But its not the time yet to be stable in this.
I've done something that not suppose to be done in our r'ship that break ur trust.
And i noe that now is late to regret.
Bcos i've done somthing bad that really broke ur heart.
And it make me feel really bad and sometime im just so awkward .
And now im wishing that you would come back through my door.
Don't tell me I ran out of time, If it takes the rest of my life.
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true.
I really need you in my life.

2009-08-17T03:37:00.000-07:00

Hello bloggers. Its been so long i've update a proper entry. So as im off for today and since im free. I was searching to blogshop about the hills that i saw my manager wore it. Its sooo soo cute.. Its in PINK. What stuff thats in PINK is not cute right?? Yes its not in Singapore but its in hong kong and 1 of the blogshops is having spree of shoes here i singapore. IM L.O.V.I.N.G. IT! Ok lets stop crapping about the hills and stuff. Ok for today, i meet my partners in crime my super duper "BF or "BF". Get it? heh;) He was here to do some stuff. And not to forget i've plans for him before Sept 8. And im gonna miss him. And for today my tummy is really upset. I just don noe y. I noe i only eat sambal goreng that he bought for me in the morning. And then i think somthing goes wrong.

And to my beloved gf, whose being so down this few days:
NO worries babe. Just rmbr that u still have ur frens that stick by ur side. "No man's dont lari, we as frens will come to u honey";) Ingt 1,biar org uat kite jgn kite uat org ok love. Dont ever look back to ur past history bcos u look more beautiful with ur new attitude that ur presence brought u now. U change alot now, u become a better person n mre mertuad. Just be happy of what u have now. ok?;) Jus promise me not to repeat ur past history be some1 better ok?

2009-08-12T15:15:00.000-07:00

i miss his sugar and spice.

*im broke:(

and i cant wait for my next pay...

And im tired.. just finish work at 4am..

And have to continue at 10am after this...

Im so farking sien.. And im off on this Saturday... yahhooo!!

2009-08-11T15:37:00.000-07:00

To some people that is being busybody in my LIFE.

No worries im leading a happy life ahead:)

Just keep tracking on ur life.

Just dont worry about me aitez:)

ps. Jadi manusia jgn jadi kpo. Jage tepi kain kau tu.

2009-08-01T13:51:00.000-07:00

2009-07-30T04:12:00.000-07:00

Im BLOODY-FULLED right now. i mean bloated..;)gheh!

hahha! Sorry Anna i wake up late just now.

I promise her to wake up at 12 but end up i wakeup at 2.30.

But den went to the shower at 2.45.

Our planned was actually to go to ubi. To renew my PDL n booked my TP.

But to wake up at 2.30 is already late.. Because Anna is working today at 6.

So den we make our 1st stop to buy our makeup stuff at TM Watsons.

Den off to have our lunch at Pizza Hut. Thats the part dis little girl full filled her craving things.

Then off to window shopping.

Buy some stuff at Cotton on. And off she goes to work and i went home.

And now im looking for people whose willing to go to karaoke with me today??;)
hehehheh!!

2009-07-23T12:36:00.000-07:00

HOPING IS NOT THE BEST THING TO FEEL.

When u've hope and that HOPE just fall to the drain just like tat u'll become HOPELESS..

Many things go through my mind but i only have little things to say.

This is another way that i can spilled my feelings.

Its easy to say let go but it is hard to do.

Love really make people blind and willing to do every sacrifices.

Im not saying without experience.

Im facing it all this while.

Its a heartache to hear that i give u a hard time all this while.

Im really sorry of my wrong doings.

Please just forgive me.

And the BIGGEST thing that i made that i already mantion on my previous post was "GOING CLUB WHEN HIS MOM WAS WARDED IN ICU".

And i guess people will never forgive me when i did that.

But i have my reason on it.

I GUESS IF I LOVE SOMEONE I SHOULD LET HIM GO.

But in another way of my thinking was im giving up my love.

IM JUST SO CONFUSE.

And im tripping.

2009-07-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

So yesterday night was spending the time with my LOVELIES... I really miss those late night slack.. And atlast we did it with full attendance.. With those advice insyallah i can make it through.. Thks all for all ur LOVE. And i Love you all TRUCKLOTS!

2009-07-20T04:16:00.001-07:00

GUESS WAT??!!

I JUST TOOK MY OLD MEMORY CARD FROM YAN..
AND DIS IS FARKING FUNNY, MEMORIABLE AND ETC...

DIS WAS IN 2005-2007 OR 2008

2009-07-18T12:01:00.000-07:00

tag reply

Joann: Hi. Hw r u lately? Btw i am trying to gather all Nt people in facebook.. Click the link to join us k. Thanks..
me:im doing fine..hw can i join u when i have no fb..hehe~~ jus keep me update here ok darling..

annasky: weik aunty uh,cn give me 1 BIGGAMACA MEAL..haha..ke kau nk aku sebut clear2 kat depan kau?woit,da lah,enjoy singlehood for the time being...put all those **** aside..release all those heartpain for nw
me:siol!!biggamaca meal!!!hahah!!tkpe tk yah nk sebot aku pecah perut nnnti..enjoy singlehood abes..hahah!

syaz: hey hun, cheer up alright.. hugs.
me:will do love..thks..*hugs*

Nur: Relink aku. ((:
me:alamak!!bdk kecik nie isik reink je la!!!

BoutiQueen: Home of The Queens - 20% discount on all instock items. T&C apply. Come on babes, visit us now!
me:ok noted!!;)

abbyhotty: eyy, memang kau type thurs peeeeee~~~
me:ok nie part aku da blur ok..sory!

lin: b strong i love u!
me:thks baby for bein there!!ilyt!!

jannah: biler agaknye kau nk gi karaoke ngn aku ehk?? tgh tunngu nie...
jannah: eyy baybay...b strong k...i hope u'll overcome all of dis patiently...
me:bler ehk??!!ntah!ko la mcm biskut kejap ade kejap hlng..

abbyhotty: ouh yeah. kau nye man tu nk ikot tau!
me:ikkot la ckp ng die!!!

lin: tanx for the late nite convo n webcam!ily!
me:ur welcome dear!!

Yanie: nis,nasi KANG-KANG SATOOO!!HAHAHAHA.nsi tu kn,dia add INGREDIENT DALAMAN SPESIALl siol smp org hypnotize ek.bayekk.
me:S.P.E.E.C.H.L.E.S.S.

abbyhotty: sungguh marah.com kamu. nti kite tgk wyg k!
me: marah??lol!

rin: relink
me:done reink!:)

2009-07-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

COMPLICATED

CONFUSION

THANKS TO ALL THE LOVELIES AND 1 OF IT WAS THE ABOVE WHO POST AN ENTRY TO ME. I HAD NO ONE TO TURN TO AND LUCKY I CALLED HER AND SHE DID CHEER ME UP AND GIVE THE HEARING EAR ALL DAY. AFTER 1 ANOTHER, NANA CAME TO MEET ME, WAHIDAH TALK TO ME ON THE PHONE AND CAME BY, ANNA WAS ALL THE WAY CHEER ME UP WHEN I WAS AT WORK. MAKING ME LAUGH BCOS OF HER "BIGGAMACA MEAL". DAYS BEFORE DYLA CAME WITH BBY IQAH WAS SHOCKED. I WAS ACTED NORMAL BUT THIS BBY GIRL TOLD TAT I WAS SAD. MAKING HER SIGN LANGUAGE MAKING ME MELT TELLING IM SAD. ITS HARD THIS FEW DAYS WITH SOMEONE I CHERISH AND FAMILY. IM SPEECHLESS NOW. AND HARTLESS.

2009-07-12T17:56:00.000-07:00

To whome it maybe concern,

If u are passing by here.

Read this and get this is mind.

Yes i am in love wif u, but not wat u r now.

Im in love with u, the old u.

Yes im the BAD ones that i can't deny.

Im one HEARTLESS BIT*H,

Being in the club when u r inneed and when u are at ur lowest.

But to think it through again.

U make 1 hell of my life a roller coaster.

Yah my bad!! Bcos of me u are changing tat someone tat i dnt even noe??

Im clueless..? My heart are really NUMB tat is wat i can say now.

At first u had the key to my heart and for now u've lost the key to heart.

Thanks to u that i noe wat love really means and thks to u i dnt noe how to fall in love again..

At first it was just a crack to my heart and now its broken into pieces.

I HATE FACKERS!!!

SOMEONE SAY HE LOVES ME!

BUT SACRIFICE SHITS TO OTHER BIT*H!

DONT EVEN DARE TO BUY MY STUFF WITH ITS OWN BARE HANDS BUT BUY OTHER PEOPLE STUFF WITH HIS OWN BARE HANDS!!!

9 LETTERS;

H.E.A.R.T.L.E.S.S.

2009-07-10T16:24:00.000-07:00

LIFE DOSEN'T ALWAYS GO YOUR WAY.

JUST LOOK UP AND NEVER TO LOOK DOWN.

WHATEVER MISTAKE YOU'VE DONE NEVER REGRET JUST LESSON LEARN.

IN LIFE YOU NEED TO LEARN SOME NEW THINGS.

IF LIFE ALWEAS GOES UR WAY MEANT YOU NEVER TRIED NEW THING IN LIFE.

PS: NEVER BREAK 4 THINGS IN LIFE,

-TRUST

-PROMISE

-RELATION

AND HEART BECAUSE WHEN THEY BREAK THEY DONT MAKE NOISE BUT PAINS ALOT.

2009-07-07T14:07:00.000-07:00

Ok today's time was spending at home.

Everyone was here.

Wahidah, anna, Yanie and her bf whose bdae is today..

So happy bdae bario!!

Was shisha-ing at home..

Nothing special was done.

Talking crap and suddenly talking about my love life.

ok cut the crap.

Nothing much to elaborate more.

Wat past is past.

And im gonna see wats coming up to me in life.

And im gonna say this i wont be in a reltionship until im all settled.

2009-07-06T00:02:00.000-07:00

helo earthlings!

Those pictures were all yesterday picture after attented to yan's sister wedding.

And off im off to work..

But before that had a chat with dis pmpn gler..

ps : dissapoinment. heartbreak. no more tears to cry. had enuf. and lets move on.

And the other note will be mumy's comin bck home soon..

And yanie is home!! yahooo!!

2009-07-02T14:16:00.000-07:00

ok quick post! im home from work. Time check is 5.25am. Im TOTALLY PIST!

NO one left me the durian. Im soo soo sad..

I WANT TO EAT DURIAN CAN??!!

ANYONE CAN BUY FOR ME???!

IM CRAVING FOR IT..

Speaking of craving im craving for HOTCAKES AND BIG BREAKFAST AND NOT TO FORGET MAC SPICY.

Ok 1 of the craving food is MEE Goreng at safron that have been ticked by yan.

He treat me yesterday at safron. heh!

yum2!! But i forgt about the mata lembu. DAMN!

ok now im off to bed.. im very T.I.R.E.D!!!

2009-07-01T00:06:00.000-07:00

Hello ladies... Since i have the free time to update. I'll update. So yest was having prac since Lin was asking i can tell u was chicken bcos yesterday i have to drive auto car. And i thought of booking my TP but the counter have close. Bcos i took a night lesson for Auto. After i went ubi, Gf nana pick me up there since i was requesting. Bcos ubi was damn scary. The feel of lost was there.. hah! She sent me home for me to have my dinner and off to work at 11+ since im working at12. So for work big bro took me there.Call Anna and she ordered of her tak habis2 drink it was redbull. Tell u wat anna another few years kaki kau kodong.. hahha!!

OK so today im working at 7pm so after this i have to do my home chores. And was visiting Lin's blog and i was "terasa" I wonder who did she dedicate the post to?

"My girlfriend are the rangers that bring lights to my dull world. Who stand soul by souleach day withoutwe realsing they were there. They are humans who gave words of wisdom without putting shame. The one who always bring colours and make it so lively everday.

Dear gf, when love knock you down pull yourselves up. I believe you are strong to face each and every obstacles that came in and out. It just making you a stronger person. Gf i dont have to be there everytime to stand through as my soul are with you.

Dont feel the lose of me where you know i always loves you. Dry every tears that you once shed wet them with your beautiful smile. Prove the world and yourselves you deserve much more then love. Lastly gf , always remember that i always hold you next to me. ILY."

It really touches me. Everyone has given me this advice "part and parcel in life". But its hard to handle somtime. The misses that i had is unspoken..